Slow Coach

I’m slow.

Say something begins to happen now. I begin to note the symptoms in a few months.
Takes me 6-8 months , sometimes over a year to figure out that I may be depressed. Or angry.

Then 2-3 years, sometimes 6 to figure out why.

Most other things that I’m doing meanwhile, I’m pretty fast at. Fast girl.
Say that again, properly, slowly: I’m pretty fast at most other things I’m doing.

I didn’t used to be so slow. When I was 11 and then 12, I knew I was sad, I even found out I was depressed, and I knew I needed help.

I suppose I finally figured out why we live so long….. we get 50-80 years to amble along slowly, figuring out whatever we want to figure out.
I guess I would like to thank God for that.

Meanwhile there’s a really posh Slow Movement growing really fast in the world. But I want to be slower right now.

About Natasha Badhwar

"Because I'm a Tinker. That's who I am. Tinkers fix things. But I can't do it alone." (Pause for lots of action. Group Action......) "You did it, Tinker, you saved Spring!" I also have three children, one marriage, a million friends and one life.
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