And it is now that I am beginning to feel normal and relaxed about it. About being a mother surrounded constantly with the sounds and visuals and references of my daughters. From the outside It would seem that I have taken rather a long time about it !Not being bound to the job has helped. Because in a way the job was both a refuge as well as something that put pressure on me to disconnect from the family…. even if for short pockets of time.
So right now I am here blogging… still don’t have a single candidate I feel ok about sharing these thoughts with…. and the ladies are playing in the background, negotiating barbies and their hair accessories with each other.
And this is my life. I like it very much.
( that’s a photo of me from my video workshop in Lahore. When Farjad called to ask If I could do a workshop for IRC film-makers in Lahore, I said, “Yes, I need 4 visas.”
We stayed in one room in the IRC building. 9am-6pm workshop, after that Lahore seeing with Nishat baaji and family. In this photo I have just returned from dinner, its midnight and I am checking in on the trainees busy editing their films. Ali on my hip.)